A Flawless Life

Who has a Flawless life?  No one that I know–and I know some amazing people!

Most people–even the most successful, have much more experience with failure than they do in living a perfect life.

Failure–what a horrible word, yet we all deal with it, and we all face it. Some of us confront failure occasionally; some of us address it on a regular basis. Some of us cope with so much failure that if we could buy stock in it, it would be the only way for us to succeed!

Life is about choices.

Life is about overcoming.

Life is about victory.

I understand what failure does to a person. I married my first husband twice and divorced him twice. The first time, I married him because I believed in happily-ever-afters. I loved him and I believed he loved me. The second time, I married him because I still believed in happily-ever-afters. I still loved him and believed he loved me. We had a son together. We were meant to be a family, not a broken and dysfunctional home. I believed he had changed his ways, and now understood what a treasure I was to him. Surely, he loved me.

In my first novel, Flawless: Perfection has a Price, Kathryn’s story is a reflection on what failure does to a person. It is filled with excerpts from my emotional journey: my hurts, my insecurities–even flashbacks of memories that once tormented me. Most of all, it is a story of my healing process, which includes an amazing man named Jared.

What I didn’t realize is that by writing this novel, I was prophesying over my real life. Flawless is more than just a story to me. It is a miracle of transformation and new beginnings.

Kathryn is a 27 year old single mother, trying to do her best to raise her daughter in a world filled with evil and deception.  Her marriage is difficult. Her husband is angry, jealous, accusatory, and possessive. He stalks her while he’s alive, and he haunts her after he’s dead–not only in her mind–well, at least she thinks the weirdness is all in her mind, but she’s not sure. What should she think when a form resembling her dead husband materializes before her, wearing the same clothes she last saw him in when he stalked out the door?

She doesn’t believe in ghosts.

She’s concerned that she’s losing it–as in get-the-straight-jacket-because-this-brain-is-done kind of losing it. To add to her confusion, a handsome stranger rescues her from a killer dog and an entire slew of memories and odd images plague her. She is bewildered as tiny pieces of a life she forgot and a past love that maybe existed are exposed–and none of it makes sense.

How much pressure can a girl take?

Nothing is easy, but burying the truth doesn’t help her, either–it only delays the healing process and hinders her, causing her problems to escalate to the extent that she must face them, understand them, and move on with her life.

Kathryn makes many choices–sometimes without full knowledge since she suffers from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, a mental ailment that may leave gaps in a person’s memory or cause them to react differently or unexpectedly to specific situations. The trauma that caused this disorder is her story to tell as she struggles with her life and the uncertainty that surrounds her.

Isn’t that how it is in real life? One bad thing after another happens to us and we wonder: how much more? When is enough, enough? And who gets to decide? Does God hate me? Has he forgotten about me? What did I do in my life to deserve this? If He’s allowing these things to happen to make me stronger, when am I going to be strong enough?

Through Kathryn’s story, I hope you find some of these answers. I hope you discover that we don’t have to be perfect to receive His love. God doesn’t expect us to be Flawless. He loves us right where we’re at in our lives.  We don’t have to lose twenty pounds first or read the Bible every day for a week. However, He does want us to work hard to do our best and learn to depend on the right sources, with Him as our primary source.

Don’t be fooled: this is not a religious novel, but you will find some Christian influence in this story because of my belief that we have a Lord who loves us and gives us choices, freedom, and space. When we make the wrong choices, we don’t always like the results. Our poor decisions allow things to happen to us because we open doors that we should never touch. Kathryn’s mother understands this and tries to warn her, but often, children don’t listen and have to do things their way. Imagine that. We can’t control the consequences, no matter how hard we try to save our children or protect them from the terrible results that can make their lives difficult, miserable, or cause them harm.

Let’s face it, sometimes the things that happen in this world do not make sense. We try to do the right things and make the right choices and garbage still crashes down around us!

My intent in this story is to convey the way a woman feels about love, sex, fear, loss, and pain. This is a novel about being a mother, building a career, and raising a child. This is a story about new beginnings–even if it’s in the middle of your life–even when the life you thought was yours is gone. I can’t tell you a story without telling you about my Lord and how I see Him fit into the big picture, but don’t let that stop you from reading.

Again, this is not a religious book, so if you believe that all a woman needs is a chaste kiss and a pat on the head, this story may not be for you because you may freak out when you get to chapter–oh wait, I’m not going to tell you, or you might jump ahead!


I am grateful to the many people who have shaped and contributed to my life and helped me to become the person I am today–in both good ways, bad ways, and I-don’t-think-I-can-get-out-of-my-bed-today ways.

No matter who you think I am and regardless of my failures, I am not condemned. I am strong and successful and I will continue on the victorious path until I finish this race.

If you are in a difficult situation, you can find your way out. God has an amazing plan for your life, but you must seek Him. Find Him and believe. He has all the answers you need.

Please, join me on this road to healing and success!

Happy reading!


Dawn M. Garcia, M.S.
FaceBook: DawnMGarcia.Author

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